In a few weeks time I'll be leaving behind a country I have called home for almost 12 years of my life, aka almost all of my adult life. My friends, my co-workers, my city, my country..everything. I'll have no friends in this new city, no associations with anyone except my husband..I am excited to be moving because our bi-coastal marriage has been very difficult on both of us to say the least. I am happy that this long distance thing is coming to an end but I am also a little sad to leave behind everything that is familiar to me.
A precursor to this big move is that I'll also be quitting work, something I am having a hard time getting used to. Because of visa complications, I can't work in this new country. So quitting a job without a new job to go to is scary. And not knowing when these said visa restrictions will lift is also not very comforting. I have worked for as long as I can remember. I started working even before I graduated and have been completely self reliant since then. So the thought of quitting my job and not having anything else to fall back on makes me extremely anxious. In fact, just last week I had a minor anxiety attack picturing myself giving the official resignation. Though, all of this could become a moot point if my dream to get into one of the MBA schools I have applied to, materializes. I was hoping that by the time I quit, I'll know which school I am going to and that way the quitting work now will feel like a break before starting school. But not having heard from any school so far, makes this quitting just that. Quitting into an abyss of not knowing what comes next.
Apart from these work complications, the other thing that scares me a little is knowing that I have no friends in my new city/country. All of the people I have met so far on visits there are my husbands friends and their wives. They are all really nice people but not one of them I can call my very own close friend. I really hope I can meet some new people and make some new friends, but that's a topic all of it's own.
Having said all that, I am looking forward to moving. I will be living with my husband and setting up a new home, our home. I am looking forward to so many firsts :) He's a sweet man and I know he doesn't take my sacrifices lightly. Finally having some free time will be good as it will allow me to relax and unwind and pursue some of my interests and hobbies that I haven't been able to do all that well. The city I am moving to is a very vibrant city with so much to do and see. The weather there is great, I won't have to deal with snow storms, or for that matter, snow!! So there's definitely quite a few pluses. Most importantly, life will have a completely different flavour from what I have become used to in the last decade of my life. Living with someone, having someone to come home to (or in my case, having someone who comes home to me), living in a big city, meeting new people, living in a different culture, all of that makes this move exciting and something to really look forward to.
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